I came out of the doctor's surgery today and spotted that my car had a flat back tyre.
"Great! That's all I need." I said as I kicked it.
I drove to the nearest garage and pumped in some air. It looked OK. Maybe I could just ignore it and get on with my day. I pondered this idea for a few moments before heading into town, straight to the garage which sold me the tyres.
Once there, the mechanic took off the wheel and showed me the screw that was deeply embedded in the rubber. The tyre would have continued to deflate; it was unsafe. I asked him to repair it.
I had twenty minutes to kill so I went into the Christian bookshop and "Becoming myself" by Stasi Eldredge caught my eye. In the first chapter she speaks about God being called I Am.
"He is not becoming. He already is. And now because of him, I am becoming myself."
This resonated with the journey I feel God is leading me on. I'm excited to have been led to Stasi's book. I have struggled with poor health for as long as I can remember. I've started on yet another regime of liver detoxing and healthy eating. This time I'm bringing God into my struggle. I feel that I'm like a punctured tyre, constantly running flat. I keep getting a little more air in but I'm soon deflated again. I'm trusting that my journey of healing will be different this time. I am seeking to become the 'myself' I was created to be. I hope that in uncovering that person God will remove the screwed up image I've been bumping along with all these years, and that he will fill me anew.